HEHEHEHE 42ND STREET IS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love him :)



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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAPPPPYYY TIMMESSS

What just happened??

Please....

Constantly seeking aproval and love from that one person who will never show it.... it hurts now...

What is love....
I say i love you...
Am i only saying it.. not feeling it
Do i love him...
But say i love you because he'll never be mine..

im crying, crying tears i thought i'd cried.... they burn ...

Deep in my heart im concealing things i am longing to say...
frightened you'l slip away... you must love me....

I want to give up on myself...im tired of being strong.. why can't i collapse and crumple into a ball why do i always deal with it alone....but why cant the others understand.... and why doesnt he want to hear... i feel like a stuck record...it hurts now.....



Why are you never there when i need you...
Why am i always there to catch you...........

Im torn in two..

I don't know whats going on.. how i feel... im so sad now when today was so good .... i enjoyed today.. why do i feel so bad.. why do i feel the urge to talk to tom or steph... was what i did today wrong... why do i feel so bad now...

I'm going to cry, cry everything out of me every feeling... i don't want to feel anymore... even if that feeling is happiness... i judt don't want to feel....

Happiness is the best feeling in the world!!!

I havent't felt this since him....
I haven't loved since him....
I haven't been touched since him....

Now theres you...
You're the new him...

I have never felt so happy....