Take time to realize....

hmmm.....

I believe in angles but i call them best friends...

I LOVE these people more than life itself they are my best friends...

• Tom/Tommy/Babba/Babs/Brother
• Abikins
• Hattieikins
• Cheesecake
• Pidge
• Rory
• Steph
• Emily
• Lois /Lo Lo/Lo

i call these people my best friends.... I love them

xxxx

:)

Right so havent written in a while :) lots to say

i got a new job! .. well for a week! i'm teaching a summer school drama thing for a week, :D £250 for the week! thats from the 3rd-7th! yay! money!

Oh Xoz had a baby girl! :)

Tom stayed over last night, we camped in a tent, it was so fun! tom made a new version of chicago, its the sex version i was a little scared, gave tom a back massage again.. i either nearly killed him or he went to sleep... but yeah then we talked for ages! he goes away on saturday though :( then he gets back i go to work for the week but i'll see him in the evenings, then after that i go to Guilford for a week.. im so scared!!!! .:( but it should i be fun!

i'm really missing all my friends at the moment... especially college people like Hattei, Ruth, Zo, Megan, Gemmawemma, Abi and espcially alex.. i havent spoken to him or been round him or anything.. well there was frankies last friday but that was just ackward and everyone at the party from gosford all hate me! i was so like :( why did he have to put me down.. im looking frward to next week though! im staying at rorys parents house for the week before he goes to edinburgh!! :( but yeah... thats a basic catch up...

but generally im a happy bunny :) things are perfect with Tom and we're really good :) loves it so yeah hopefully life will stay fun!


loves and hugs!
xxxxxxxxxxx

Is it Love... or Sex?

I love him i really do... sitting here in the darkness with him.. on his ipod me on here typing my heart away.... i dont know... he says he cares but does he only want 1 thing.... it seems that way sometimes... dont want another scenerio where i fall for him more than they me... i cant take thay kind of pain all over again.... i really want this to work.... but im scared... and i dont know if i should be.... i dont know i dont feel right sometimes.... i feel sad and used i know he says he loves me... i dont know am i just being stupid.... i cant bare more pain...thats the one thing i cant do with.... i love him... im falling in love with him...but what happens if its just me.. i dont wanna long for someone who doesnt even care ive done that so much and im tired of it now...all my life i have just wanted someone to love me,... and to mean it for good...and someone who can be my best friend as well as my boyfruiend..... i dont know... i m worried now hes got me im going to lose him.... he's getting bored and i can almost see it... it mkaes me want to cry and shatter into a thousand pieces but i cant.... i love him... i wont tell him i know ir how i feel i dont wanna push him away or change him....


I love him. I'm in love with him.

Why me?

Short one tonight....

bad time at myco, jelous of tom, miss boyf, cant dance, failure,hate my life.
xxx

Time....

Sorry its been so long...!

been busy with my boy MFL AND Myco,
well anyway finished college now, 3 months off, find a job, edinburgh, GSA, London, Uni parks, Holiday, Work, Tom, Rory, Friends,

im so wierd at the moment feel really lost... i dont know what it is... im happy.. well i think im happy... i feel a bit off at the moment.. i feel not right very much out of place.maybe i miss tom... i spent a lot of time with him recently and i havent spoken to him or been with him a lot since... i dunno... lifes just a bit odd at the minute.. on the plus side though i have just oredered my new tamagotchi :D me and Zoz can be cool and have tami friends!!! yay!!

but yeah, oh wow just remembered i forgot to tell you about last week, well last tuesday... i went to see Sister Act with Tom it was really nice and i loved it so much!!! one of the best musicals ive ever seen :D then on froday i stayed rounds toms it was fun we stayed up talking and stuff :) then saturday was his suprise party!! he loved it (well i hope he did) wass really fun then he stayed over and we stayed up talking to gems in msn, had a pillow fight chatted, made a double bed on the floor gave him a back massage and a cuddle and then we slept for AGES! his mum came at like half 9 though! lol!! then sunday i went to the pub with abs and john and rory and stuff, then we went back to johns it was really fun!! in the morning me and hattie made a HUGE fry up and it was so awesome the boys drinkning and plaing pool me abs and hattiekins sunbathing then mine and Hats shower she is my officail lesbian lover now :P only her! lol! rory got so paranoid though! bless him!
but yeah then sunday night i stayed round rorys flat it was nice i wa so so tired though! then tuesday i .....cant remeber... then wednesday rory came over... bought me sunglasses was fun layed in the sun :) ten had myco! gay! i then stayed round rorys flat with Zoz that was a fun night we ate pasta at 2am!! haha!then yesterday we went to town with Jack Nathan Rory and Zoz and i bought a whole new wardrobe :D then i had ox op didnt do much at all! then i came home rory stayed over and we had a good night,, he went home today and i didnt do anything,, so yeah... thats my life in the oast few weeks....