*My lighter, superficial side will always be too quick for the deeper side of me, and that's why it will always win. You can't imagine how often ive already to tried to push this person away, to cripple her, to hide her, because after all she's only half of what is called me. And he has touched my emotions more deepply than anyone else has done before,- except in my dreams....*


* I am so frightened, i am so frightend of the unexpected sunrise finishing of revelations and tears and the excitement finishing.I don't fight it, my love is this fear, i nourish it who can nourish nothing, fear hems me in.
I am concious that these miuntes are short and that the colous in my eyes will vanish when your face sets. *

*It really is a wonder i haven't dropped all my ideals because they seem so absurd so impossible to carry out. Yet i keep them, because in spite of everything i still believe that people are really good at heart.*

In bags, tired, scared and on edge...

undervalued, underated and unloved.


I know i've over stayed my welcome but i cant seem to force myself to go...i hate it... i want tog et out i want to be able to live but i cant break this habit... drves me insane...