Like a wave you've taken me out to sea, now you've gone back in and left me out in the blue...

It was jesus christ superstar this week
it was awesome...
i miss it
aftershow was fun
until..... tom told jess who he liked...
he didnt tell me
why not me.... he doesnt trust me...
then him and hetty were getting all close and holding hands, cuddling, and although i dont like him in that way i felt a prang of jelosy.... like he should care about me.... and i wanted to cry and slap him but i didnt i laughed and talked burning inside.... why didnt he tell me why did i have to find out that way!!!! he says he doesnt like her.. but he does... and jess glenn.... i just wish one day though he'd come up to me hug me and say what i say to him... i love you you're my best friend.... not love as in romantic love as in family love...friendship love;....... i just want him to show me he cares about me... im always there for him.... but when i go to fall on him i get broken.... all i want is a hug.... i dont want him.... i want his friendship... but i guess that cant be forced i suppose... i just wish he'd acknowledge im there for him and he is me.... i love my little tommy.... why cant he love me too.. like a brother should....