Meh...

such a busy week.. so many things to do.

Devised
Concert
FMP
See Friends
MYCO
Ox Op
Work

Why is it i always manage to completely fuck up everything... huh? i seem to push away everyone i hold close and just breakdown, then i spend months re building my life and for what... for me to ruin it all over again... i dont spend any time with my friends.... i just sleep when i can... and just muddle on through on my own...

i feel so alone.
I know i have people but i still feel so alone
i want everything to be right

I WANT FRANNIE TO FUCK OUT MY PERSONAL LIFE!

i want to rewind and fix everything... but i cant and i have to keep going

head up carry on.. but im cracking breaking i cant hold on much longer i dont know what im going to do..

Maybe its true...

Maybe what people tell me is right... maybe im just not listening,... maybe i am a bad person... i mean Tommy's said it, Rory said it.. and even my own mother.... i dont know how to keep my friends my friends... i just want everyone im friends with to know that but i dont know how... i have no time.... i need to find time!

ugh i just wanna hide awy for a year... go away and never come back..