Is it Love... or Sex?

I love him i really do... sitting here in the darkness with him.. on his ipod me on here typing my heart away.... i dont know... he says he cares but does he only want 1 thing.... it seems that way sometimes... dont want another scenerio where i fall for him more than they me... i cant take thay kind of pain all over again.... i really want this to work.... but im scared... and i dont know if i should be.... i dont know i dont feel right sometimes.... i feel sad and used i know he says he loves me... i dont know am i just being stupid.... i cant bare more pain...thats the one thing i cant do with.... i love him... im falling in love with him...but what happens if its just me.. i dont wanna long for someone who doesnt even care ive done that so much and im tired of it now...all my life i have just wanted someone to love me,... and to mean it for good...and someone who can be my best friend as well as my boyfruiend..... i dont know... i m worried now hes got me im going to lose him.... he's getting bored and i can almost see it... it mkaes me want to cry and shatter into a thousand pieces but i cant.... i love him... i wont tell him i know ir how i feel i dont wanna push him away or change him....


I love him. I'm in love with him.